Just wanted to say

By Linda J UK May 2020

So, this is not meant to be funny, but I am trying to convey something painful and this is how I do it.

I got stopped by the police on Friday as I was ‘hot footing’ to Derby town to the bank by car… and had a short time frame to get there and back to continue work. Because of the queues, I was anxious to get there and back as quick as I could . I didn’t realize I was speeding but apparently I was doing 40 in a 30 miles zone… eek…!!!

I saw the lights flash to tell me to pull over – it was double yellow lines and I thought better than to defy the instruction (although where they had told me to park, was also breaking the law). “Not a good moment to challenge Linda” I thought. For my part, I was somewhat embarrassed – was it my wheels … I have had a slow puncture for months and my car has seen better days…God only knows. I also know I was rushing, but I hadn’t checked the speed.

The rubber necks were out… black woman, two white male coppers … what is going down…??(they must have been thinking). I had my prettiest blue dress on and I flashed the most beautiful smile….. but deep down I was thinking of Floyd and the current riots in America and how it feels to be black and stopped by the police and a lone female to boot…in this hour.

I wasn’t frightened ….. I’m a bit ‘cocky’ like that. I don’t really fear anyone – something just kicks in…. Just ask my dad… !!! I was however bracing for what they would come with and what would my answer and attitude be?

Thank God it was broad day light. One was on his phone in the car and the other questioning me. They went through the rudiments and I explained my situation ie that I was a key worker, in a hurry, to get back to my desk/post.

I started to weigh things. I had seen the pictures of Floyd and didn’t really want to go there, because of the pain of the hurting – too much ..sometimes.. too many cases. I know that there was injustice. I could barely look at the pictures for the pain it drew from me. We need to stand . But as children of God we fight by a different set of rules.

Floyd’s face and situation flashed again, as I stood there outside the gate and I thought of the many others. I had just had a good prayer evening with my young daughter and this then (I could see) was the inevitable counter attack – trying to introduce a spirit of defeat and fear. I wasn’t having it… !! I was ready to take my place in history, if at all necessary.

The officer was respectful and said he would let me off on this occasion… he understood the impact that Corona had on all of us and let me go on my way.

In contrast, the whole manner and way the officer had carried out his role with Floyd was arrogant and full of pride. He had his hands in his pockets and his knee on a man’s neck. He refused to hear that poor man’s cries.

I’ve seen injustice like this before and the cries of my people – I have had the knee of others on my own neck, behind my back, trying to crush and squeeze the very life out of me. But I always get up – as Floyd did in the spirit and as will many others similarly oppressed.

I haven’t lost my life, but there have been times along the way, that I have lost my livelihood to the cunning of persons, institutions and systems that seek to silence and oppress and oppress black people in particular – sometimes they use even our own against us and our children.

I just wanted to say..

I will pray.

LindaJ UK

31/5/2020

Writing as a leader, a sister, a mother and of dual heritage child ie not on either black or white side, but on the side of righteousness, justice and peace.

A Word from Our Father

Many years ago the Lord sent me to a ministry called Ellel in Farnham, Surrey. There I learned a lot of things including how jesus gathered the people together, taught them, healed them and fed them. Simple as….!!!

I had gone to bed last night after going back on the front line in an area of sensitive ministry. Throughout the night, I sensed I was praying for protection and confirmation that this next appointment was of God ie that I wasn’t risking my life for a new thing and one that God had not ordained or directed.

This morning I awoke from my sleep at 5:00 am and was listening for the word for the day from Father – as I do – spiritual cup in hand. I wandered into my recently remodeled kitchen to make a cup of tea. As I waited for the kettle to boil and what he might say to me today, I thought I would organize one of the shelves in the kitchen. As I lifted up the layers of fresh tablecloths, napkins and kitchen stuff, a book marker is lying at the bottom. I pick it up. It is from one of my teaching days at Ellel . It has my name on it. It says

Dear Linda,

Do not be afraid for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name and you are mine. Isaiah 43:1.

How wonderful is that? This is how our Father speaks, has spoken to me, directed me and comforted me throughout the years. His word is like a balm to my soul. A covert in the wind. A watering of any dry ground. When the arms of flesh fail (indeed if flesh should fail), then I know that we have nothing to fear. I know that I am his and he is mine and because He said so!! He said that if we seek Him, we will find Him.

I have found that to be so and so today counsel and encourage you and as an evangelist will say :

Seek the Lord whilst he may be found call upon him whilst he is near. He is a just God and if we turn to him in a day or time of trouble, He will have mercy and pardon us abundantly.

Isaiah 55:6-7 (and summarized)

Prayer

Father, thank you for your word. It is like a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.

Lord I declare today that your word concerning me is forever settled in heaven. Thank you because you are my covering, my blanket, my shelter in the storm. You take away doubt and fear and you call us to trust in you.

Lord your word says that as the rain and snow comes down from heaven and goes not back up…but does the thing it was a sent to do ie water the earth.. so it is with your word concerning us. It will not go back to you empty, but it shall accomplish that which you had purposed for it to do soooh long ago …..and it shall prosper in whatever way you have sent it.

Lord as we all negotiate this very difficult climate, we want to be where you are, to go only where you send. Father we want your word in us, to be used of you and for your glory.

Thank you for your word today and for your constant confirmation of your love and thoughts towards me/us.

May the reader be blessed and similarly watered as they chart their own course ‘In You’ . We know that nothing can separate us from you , nor take away who we are to you. Your promises stand. You will and are, an ever present help in our time of need.

Your loving daughter

Linda J

29/5/2020

Mother sets the tone

Good morning Ladies,

It’s Linda J UK up early writing and from the UK

First let me thank all of those who met to fellowship yesterday at noon in the zoom room …. and for those who had contributed in other ways and through prayers and thanksgiving throughout the week. May God bless you in all you do and in your areas of giving of yourselves and faithfulness.

It was so encouraging to hear the good reports that are being shared in terms of increased knowledge and awareness of not only who God is but the confidence in knowing who we are in Christ and the purpose we all have individually and collectively on earth.

It wasn’t Mother’s Day yesterday, but as led by the Holy Spirit we spent some time reviewing the aspects of what constitutes a godly mother. For some people there had been signs of change and growth knowing the importance of foundations, boundaries and patterns and leaving a legacy for our children – we recognized that our children are looking up to us for examples of how to be and although sometimes we just don’t feel like it …or equipped…. we realize that Father hasn’t given us a spirit of fear or timidity, but that he has given us power and authority to rule our own first ,and then broader afield and as we position ourselves in the various spheres across society.

We talked about this present moment ie the Covid crisis and wilderness times and sharing space in confined physical, emotional and spiritual situation. I shared about my previous years ‘shut in /set apart’ in the wilderness , between 2004 and 2010 and before the Lord brought me back home to do the work he had created me to do. Then.. I was parenting from a distance and through many prayers. Now, (and as a result of that experience) I continue to believe that God is in control of this pandemic as he was of my difficult situation then and I can testify to his faithfulness. As women and mothers , he loves us and understands our frame – given that he made us. He knows your name.

It was good to sit under the sunshine and to share truths. What a good Father we have. We referred to Charles Stanley’s teaching on what constitutes a godly mother and I shared it was indeed Dr Stanley who the Lord had placed as one of my spiritual teachers when I was out in the wilderness. He will always provide for us when we are in need.

I promised I would send something out and to those who were absent and therefore here are some of my thoughts gleaned and inspired from Dr Charles own teaching. Please feel free to share giving credit as I have where it is due.

Characteristics of a godly mother – can be seen as Dr Charles sets out in the 3 C’s . These are Conduct, Character, Conversation.

There is something that we see personified in a godly woman , we may not be able to put our finger on it but what we see is something along these lines:

She has a quality that separates her from most

She prays and reads the word of God

She Believes the word of God

She Loves God

A godly mother is one who has learned to trust God in every area of her life

She majors on God’s sufficiency not her personal lack

She is generous towards others

She is always thinking about others and putting their needs above her own

She is always giving a word of encouragement

She is a woman bent on building others up

We see that a godly mother is obedient and that that her obedience to God becomes not only profitable for her (see the story of Ruth) but also profitable for her children and her spouse. She leaves the consequence of every circumstance to God

We went on to talk about sharing space especially during Covid. We understand that a godly mother is pivotal in setting the atmosphere and tone of the home

Is the home free or is it full of tension ?

Is it a welcoming home , or is it a house full of tension or stress?

Is the statement or expression of love there?

It is my view that it is the mother who sets the tone in the home and children pick up both the spoken and unspoken cues.

I share the scripture – a wise woman builds her house but the foolish plucketh it down with her hands. Proverbs 14:1

We didn’t discuss these other points below which Dr Stanley raised, but I am putting them here and perhaps we can return to when we next meet . I am going to send to my other sisters also and maybe far and wide.

The characteristics of a godly mother is

One who Forgives

One who is Persistent

One who is Determined

May God continue to bless you and cause his loving face to shine on you. May you continue to grow in grace and in the knowledge of his love towards you. May you set a good tone in your home and parent well. May you be comforted in the prayers prayed and tears shed and live to see the rewards of your very many labours.

Yours in our Father’s Name

Linda J UK

Today writing as Teacher

27/5/2020

A Word and Revelation

Writing as Watchman and Intercessor

In the Year of Our Lord 17/5/2020

This word and revelation has come about over a series of dreams over the past few weeks. I am led to write as I believe it is a ‘now word’ for us all. The word is not exhaustive, but I pray you will hear Father’s heart and heart beat.

There are three themes that I believe the Holy Spirit has highlighted over this last week and these are as follows :

Who is not with me is against me

Except ye abide ye cannot be saved

Kingdom Honor and Respect

I had this very vivid dream – it was a revelation. I dreamt that it was night time and I was on a journey (lets say with another person). It was pitch black – ink black and lets say the dream was highlighting that the world as we knew it, had changed and there was need for movement – to get out and get somewhere. The path we were travelling were like the cobbled streets of Jerusalem (if you like) or old England…. All of a sudden, I saw a funeral cortège, black horses and a carriage, with the horsemen riding at speed, coming round the corner and heading in our direction, and as if to collect the next person…The dream spoke of this being the current enterprise and that there was a sense of busyness, supernatural speed about it. I quickly shouted to the person with me, “get in here” – it was a little door/opening in a wall – like the cleft in a rock – a hiding place. I saw myself diving in there, but the person that should have been just behind me, had not followed. The person , I had tried to usher into safety was nowhere to be seen. For sure ( I thought in the dream) , the horses would have crushed that person, as they had been no time to waste. Those horses/that carriage was not going to let anything get in its way. Significantly there was a warm colored blanket folded up on the stone ledge in the cave.

The Lord has spoken in my heart about this dream and I will only share an aspect of the revelation here, as it sits with the other messages ie, sometimes we are sent to help or to lead people or a person, to safety, but for whatever reason, they don’t listen or don’t hear. The dream has led me to consider parallels and to ask the Lord questions. What happened to the person that was behind me? The Lord spoke to me a few days later. ‘they were not with you…’ . He has highlighted there are familial, generational and spiritual issues at play.

The Bible graphically showed us what happened to Lot’s wife when she looked back. When God was about to rain down fire and sulphuric acid on Sodom and all that did not (and could not) represent the new era that God had wanted to usher in. Lot’s wife turned into a pillar of salt. She looked back on what was, instead of following godly advice and coming out of Sodom. I believe when she looked back she may have also been thinking about the men who had visited their home the night before; the men who had influenced her husband, in such a way, that he had wanted to leave, and at speed. Her son in laws had even said in their own heart and at Lot’s instruction ‘here we go again… ‘doom and gloom’ . But little did they know it was for the saving of their souls . We read between the lines, that their hearts had yearned for a situation, a yesterday that God had already condemned . As a result they perished and their mother turned into a pillar of salt.

As I review the story in juxtaposition to my dream , it seems clear to me that Lot must have thought that his wife was just behind him, coming out and towards a place of safety, but in-fact she was set in her ways, had already turned back, her heart had become hardened.

We are in a time of Covid in the year 2020. Not many saw the timing of this disaster, but those who know God can see him at work even through it. Father is doing the impossible and turning all our situations for good. I want to tell you : He is still in control.

What is the message for me from your dream Linda? You might well ask. Well there are many things i see and perceive. Firstly, the enemy knows his time is short hence the speed of the horsemen. There is a new spiritual order being ushered in for those who will see it and the old is being cleared away. I hear in the spirit, as it was in the beginning so it shall be in the end. Well we are either with the move of God or against it, but God won’t wait for us, a whole kingdom is at stake. Father doesn’t need the enemy’s tools to make a point but He is no respecter of persons. When he says come out of the unclean thing – touch not, handle not, we better hear, we better heed. When he says get out , get up , or move out , move…!!! We better be ready. There will be no time to take our bags, baggage’s idols or ideologies – no time to check our bank balances, our rotas or our cars. Things are upon us and they came with very little warning. Sodom was in a state, the sinning and debauchery had reached the nose of God and he was having no more of it. He thought nothing of destroying the whole lot, but for the pleading and penitence of the prayers of a few.

This brings me to the next point of illumination and my message speaks to me as it does to you

Except you remain in the boat you cannot be saved

Chapter 27of the book of Acts tells the story of the Apostle Paul as prisoner on a boat that had been caught up in peril and storm. Though a prisoner of men and suffering the loss of his liberty , by night , in dreams, the Lord continued to use him and instruct him on how the crew might best navigate and not suffer any loss. There were souls at stake and not just souls in that little boat. Paul admonished the centurions and guards ‘except you remain in the ship, ye cannot be saved’ (Acts 27:31).

I believe this is a warning for us all now in a time of shaking when all that we held dear has been removed and it is testing time. In a time when the outward show of service means very little or no longer holds, God is looking for the hearts that remind hidden and shut in with him. Hearts he can continue to use for his service. Can He still use me or you?

A point is coming when the raven will again be sent out to test the waters and the bars of the doors will again be open. I heard and saw that just now in the spirit. What kind of people will we/or ought we to be? I hear the spirit say. Will our desires be to continue in Sodom, or are we preparing for Kingdom and nearing the blessed promises of God. How are we coming out or emerging from this? Don’t forget , when the Lord saved the Israelites from the Egyptians ( taking them through the wilderness) it wasn’t long before they were lamenting and longing for the garlics and onions of Eygpt and began speaking against what the Lord had had. See Numbers 12:1-15).

So these are the situations I believe the Lord has highlighted which leads to the third and final theme which is

A Culture of Honor

Although Moses & Paul was instrumental in saving the life’s and destiny of a nation and people, the people (metaphorically speaking) still bit the hand that fed them’ but God intervened on his servant’s behalf, railing for railing (see Numbers 12:1-15), Miriam’s own hand turning leprous. God sent his son and is still sending sons and daughters. The highest honor remaining with the one whose name is above all name, Jesus. Both before and after, Moses and Paul had been chosen by God, not by man and had been sent to save but the people rebelled. “Who made you a ruler or prophet over or amongst us?” They cried. We see also whilst the barbarous people received Paul, his own kind who knew the scriptures took counsel oft to kill him.

“Oh Jerusalem Jerusalem, thou that killest the prophets and stone them which are sent unto thee; , how often would have gathered thy children together even as a hen gathers her chickens under her wings , and ye would not”. Matthew 23:37

As I was preparing to write this word this morning, I see many international leaders are alluding to a culture of Honor and it resonates here with my word . ‘Flattery being the counterfeit of honor and doesn’t bring life’. I have yet to unpack it some more but I believe a culture of Honor is synonymous with Kingdom – its not about patting each other on the back its about celebrating our Father and ushering kingdom in. We need to tread very careful in terms of those Father has placed amongst us or blessed us with. You cant say you love the Lord and hate and disrespect, dishonor those he sends or sets amongst you. Don’t bite the hand that feeds you.

God is looking for love and unity amongst his servants and amongst his children.

Further, He warns to ‘touch not the Lord’s anointed and to do his prophets, no harm’ Remember, those that receive a prophet in the name of a prophet receives a prophet’s reward and again you will know them by the. fruit.

As I close , I pray you receive this word in the spirit it has been sent – it is for the saving of yours and my soul. See it as from a Father’s hand and for us to consider our ways.

My Prayer

I pray for increased wisdom for ourselves that we may perceive the time, season and hour we are in and our individual and collective conditions.

I pray that our eyes will remain focussed upwards and onwards and that we will remain in step with you.

I pray against any institutional, generational or familial, spiritual stronghold and false hood that mars or impedes the free flow of spirit of Christ and the power of the Holy Ghost. I pray against the spirit of jealousy and the spirit of death and the horseman and his rider. Let any quickening or urgency be that of the Holy Spirit and his longed for baptism of fire.

I pray for continued covering, for a strong tower a hiding place in the cleft of the rock and at the foot of the cross.

Let our ears be open to the seriousness of the hour and let truth reign in our inward parts. He that is not with me is against me, but for those who remain in concert with you and with those whom you send, let them be blessed in their own endeavors and let light continue to shine upon their ways.

I close, continuing to stand for and pray for a culture of Truth , honor and unfeigned love across the brother and sisterhood, indeed across the Body of Christ .

Yours in our Father’s Name

Linda J UK

Writing as Watchman and Intercessor

In the Year of Our Lord

17/5/2020

FATHER’S “NO”OR “NOT JUST YET”!

Linda J UK May 2020

Those of you close to me or that have taken time to get to know me , will know I waited over 10 years for an answer to prayer. It is not that i didn’t have the answer both on a faith and a personal level ie I knew that (a) if we ask anything of him according to his will he hears ( St John 5:14 ) and that he will give you the desires of your heart(St John 5:15 ) . Further , he had personally shown me the answered prayers in many dreams and revelations, and yet it took 10 years to see the fulfillment of same. When the answer finally came it came as ‘a suddenly’ and no man or machine could have averted the promises of God. The Bible says what he closes no man opens and what he opens no man closes and that is my testimony of the prevailing jurisdiction of the kingdom of heaven, his grace , awesomeness and righteousness . I could finish this piece here as it is sufficient to encourage you in your own walk I believe. Afternoon , there is nothing special about me but God spoke and answered my prayer in a miraculous way. But I am writing during a period of a pandemic in 2020 and the whole world is on its knees waiting for an answer to their prayers. Everyone wants to get off this train but we have to wait.

There were times in my life and in my waiting, that I couldn’t even pray, all I could do was look up. I became like King David said ‘as a weaned child’ (Psalms 131:2) eg contented with the basic answer of food and warmth and a place to sleep for the day.

Now in May 2020 , I am back there with a silent heart cry, seeking no doubt (with many others) the answer and restoration from this perilous virus. Seeking an answer of deliverance from this silent assailant, that is taking so many out.

Many days now, I look up to the clouds and I say (for this and that) ‘when lord? when? ’ Each day it is clear that the answer is still awaited and I sense my Father saying Not Just Yet.

I am reminded by my own reading early this morning , that Jesus himself implored the Father just before the peril of the cross ie that if it was Father’s will to remove the cup, he should (Matthew 26:39). We see that even at this pivotal point and the heavens seemed closed to Him , Jesus continued to be willing to surrender to the will of the Father and to whatever pain or peril was planned for him, in that hour – and so must we.

We must continue to hold things in tension, betwixt and between the prayer and the answer. We must continue to take courage and heart, in our own personal and collective situations and particularly in these ‘Covid-19 times’ when we perceive the Father’s “No” or “Not just Yet”. We must stay true to the call of God on our lives in whatever form that has come.

I close with, “Our God is faithful” and a simple prayer : May you like me, see an answer to your written, spoken and unspoken prayers.

Linda J UK

Writing today as He instructs and as minister of reconciliation

13th May 2020

From the desk of Evangelist Linda J UK

It has been an interesting few weeks where I feel the Lord has been revealing hidden things and bringing things to the surface. You know how you sometimes shuffle on your bed to find the right position to settle for the night? It is the same way I have found that I am positioning my spirit man to nestle in and hear what our Father has to say. Sometimes I can’t pray out loud – I pray and worship from my heart . I just lay and wait and He speaks.

The Lord has spoken and is speaking through the circumstances of our lives and in this hour. There have been a number of revelations. I don’t intend to share all here. He has instructed me to write, so I write and I will have to give an account for all He has placed in my hands.

On the 6/5/2020 at the start of my day , He spoke into my heart. He says this is a time of Pruning, Proving , Processing , but be careful that we don’t miss it….He says we can miss it by papering over the cracks or continuing business as usual, without real self examination. It is not about a quick fix and continuing to build our own monuments, but waiting on Him, drawing from and growing in Him. He is showing that there is still a lot of jostling for position and ways we continue to neglect, crush and hurt each other for our own fame. We forget the most important things – love, and doing as He would do.

He is saying we can become expert at establishing our own forms and ways of being and doing …. that we miss (in this unprecedented time) , the necessity of brokenness and review. Some of us can’t even blush or cry – we have become hard and calloused. How we go about ministry and treat each other and our relationship with Him (the two most important commandments) – we need to review. We need to stay with the brokenness, before we begin to repair or heal or remedy, we must learn to forgive.

He is speaking expressly about a time where the tares are being separated from the wheat, not from the masses, but from our own hearts – he is looking at the hearts of us as individuals and as we make up the whole – His Body. He is talking about the the landscape of our hearts and what that looks like. It is a time to smooth out the lumps and bumps of that landscape and to ensure irrigation, proper draining and rest takes place. I see this as happening through prayer, fasting and taking our sabbath rest ie time out with Him. I see this as forgiving each other and forgetting the past. We need to be careful how we communicate in these new forms that have come in. He is speaking about the need for genuiness and unfeigned love. The old and bad stuff has to go, or there will remain infection dis ease and in the Body. We must speak the Truth and in Love. He has said and is saying it is a time of refining and recalibration – the old skin has to go. He has said we need to stop listening to the bells and whistles, the performances, the things that titillate, distract and to seek him more ie listen to and for his heart.

End of revelation

This morning as the sun rose, I found myself worshipping and spending some time reviewing the book of Luke, the very many parables which spoke to the hearts of men and still speak today in terms of self examination and self reflection ie whether we are just hearers of the word, or are we doing the word. The Bible tells us our fruit and our actions belie the conditions of our hearts and the word is for all of us.

I continue to speak expressly about the Body and ministry and the word above is for all of us. I also interject here with my own personal and family situation.

My daughter and I had a very special time last evening and I see and hear growth and change in a number of our young people – the next generation . I have been able to bring my own distant family (across several countries) and loved ones around the table via zoom and to host his presence in so many different ways. We have seen some breakthrough and increased unity on many levels. I thank God for his grace and his leading in this hour. There has been so much brought to the fore and one has to have wisdom to know how to stand. I have had to remove myself from a number of distractions or things that are simply not convenient for my spirit and we are not ignorant of the enemy’s many devices.

I continue to see myself as a watchman, praying across a few platforms and part of a few prayer initiatives, in the nation and for nations, (including our own) and for our leaders. Father is healing and wants to heal our lands. We need to fast and pray so much more and in unity.

This week (7/6/2020) I wrote a prayer (for Brazil in particular) and from the heart. It has already been sent but I share it here with you and to close and as we go into another week.

Father,

We declare that the sound of worship and your voice will continue to permeate in Brazil and in other lands. The enemy has tried to mask and silence your voice and the rightful worship which belongs to you by disease, peril and storm. Let the church rise up lord in the highways and byways of our lives and in our societies. Topple every high tower that has been built in opposition to your rule and law. Lord station your saints on the wall , back to back , side to side and in unity. As nations discuss lifting up from lock down help us to stay shut in with you thus keeping the enemy out. Close the gates of wrath and open the gates of praise. Thank you for this pregnant pause , for stopping our factories and man made systems so that we can look in and up and towards you as you prepare to return in your fullness and your glory .

Father, we are not ashamed to bow the knee and to proclaim your majesty – we will be counted among the number and there will be a remnant from every nation and people group – we stand together with our brothers and sisters across the nations and for Israel, your first born.

Lord as we continue to hold things in tension , over airways, screens, zoom rooms and WhatsApp groups in this next week and next hour .. may you be at the centre .

To you is the glory,the honour and praise.

Let everything that has breath praise your holy Name.

Linda J UK

9th May 2020