So I haven’t been dreaming or having clear night visions for a while but last night was different. This is what I dreamt.


I had been left a massive house in an inheritance but it needed remodeling. You could see the house had been opulent and had a former glory. Some people/foreigners had come in running amok leaving faeces on the floor from where they had trod or been treading. I was trying to mop up and tidy up, but there was much opposition. There was a lot going on in the upper rooms which was destructive and chaotic. There was little supervision .

There were other people in the house who also seemed to have some legitimacy there, (although it was clear in the dream that I was primary benefactor) ie holding a level of responsibility to organise and get things done. The others were mature but didn’t seem organised or interested in working together to do first things first. What was clear is that people were busy be building on the rubble, when the floor needed to be washed first and scrubbed of its muck.

I saw a prominent evangelist come in. He was dressed in outdoor clothing and was passing thru. He could see the dilemma and was concerned. He wasn’t responsible for sorting out the house, but he empathised and wished me well. He was going somewhere. He seemed to indicate that time was of the essence and /or running out.

Some doors that were opened needed to be shut and the whole layout rejiggjng so that there would be proper flow and order. There was a point that some East European children had got in (previously rowdy and unsettled) but now they started to change spiritually, settle and to lay down waiting to be tended to. I was conscious we needed to seize the moment and I was to take responsibility for organising the rooms for the different ministries. There was a lot to do. There were not many people wanting to help. Each having a skill (I could see), but going about their own thing in what the dream showed a laissez faire, superficial way. There was a massive stairwell in the middle of the house leading upwards (like the one at a well known UK ministry that has done much good work in the area of healing). I had a sense the building had been used for many large, grand events, but that that time and season was over.

I managed to go outside the building into the yard to see where I could create an open door. I was aware there was a landlord. There were two people in the yard (a man and a woman) who worked for the landlord but I didnt recognize these people in the natural. It was clear in the dream that they could have helped and had a key to let me in, but the dream showed that one was two faced- his head spun round on an axle and he had no intention of wanting to help. He was ‘diametrically opposed’ (just got that word as I was writing this up, this morning) to all I was suggesting or sought . I had to physically scale the building to get to the roof and at risk, but survived. It became clear that a barricade had been positioned over what should have been the proper front access into the living room and the barricades had been built on over the years.

I tore the barricades down and lo and behold there was the living room. I was about getting new labels to indicate (in the interim) the front door/entrance, but again was interrupted and undermined by those not working in concert. There was music playing from a music system but it wasn’t of God. I tried to turn it off. The people were from differing churches that I know, not one main church. They were milling about – many in the kitchen, but no one had put their hand to the plough to work to clean up the house.

That was the dream

Evangelist Linda J



Interpretations belong to God but it may be that there is a word for us from such a detailed dream. This is what it says to me.

I feel the Lord is pointing out the need for the foundations to be restored. It is a global word not just for one specific church or house. The word also has personal application. Let him who hears hear what the Spirit is saying to the churches.

The dream shows that there is a lot of muck that has come in and out of the House and the Body and there have not been many interested or on hand to clean things up or make reparation. We are more interested in our bellies. Each looks after his own and many vying for positions. There are saboteurs who have no intention on helping. They are double minded and hypocritical . The dream showed they prevent others, remain outside, have no inheritance. They will have their reward.

The house belongs to all of us. It is God’s house, a place of healing and recovery, but there are also pivotal people with responsibility to ensure that the harvest comes in, are looked after and that things flow or are in order. The Lord is concerned about what is being purported as altar or church music.

It is not by might nor by our power but by his spirit why we can scale walls and jump over mountains . We are his hands and ears and eyes. He needs us to say and to do the work. He will send various overseers and helpers at different times, but there are different tasks for all. There is work also for the sheep to do on the ground.

I sensed the dream had a local resonance, but also has wider implications. It can no longer be about events or theatres or ever learning and never been able to come to the knowledge of truth. Time is of the essence. We have put a lot in in terms of teaching, but we have not produced much in terms of necessary or lasting changes that moves people ‘to do’. There are significant people groups right under our noses that need our attention . The dream shows that there is a harvest coming in. We must be on hand and ready to teach them the things of God.

The time is now to get things in order and be positioned in the right place. Know your calling and stay in your lane and don’t get in the way of those the Lord sends or is sending.

Doors need to be opened and we need to pay attention to the flow and what comes in and out. The dream showed that there were things happening behind closed doors, without any monitoring and supervision. We need mature spiritual leaders that can discern , watch and nurture.

The dream shows there is hope and a time of rest and restoration coming . It shows that those things which were causing distress will settle.

We pray for the foundations to be restored and for the House , Father’s House to return to its former glory. We pray against the spirit of competition and opposition, self rule and pride. We ask that God will use our gifts, but and for his glory. Everything else is dead works no matter how pretty or what it might look like on the outside or in the natural.

We pray for the people groups that are marginalised and stigmatised due to birth origins or social and political identity. May we be sensitive to their needs. We ask for justice and open access for all , to the House of God.

Lord, we ask you to remove the wicked landlords, those who are double minded and saboteurs. Remove, those who are stiffnecked and diametrically opposed to your will. Reveal what is happening behind closed doors. Reveal your truth in this hour. Help us to clean up the House and open up the way for others to come in.

We ask for your stairway to heaven to be unblocked so that there is a free flow – our praises going up and your glory coming down.

Let any reordering or realignment be of you not of us. Help us not to fear the faces of men, but to stand up and be counted even when things look dire or are against us. Send in more helpers .

These and other mercies we ask in your Name.

Your daughter Linda J

The Last Day of the Feast

We thank God for his blessed Holy Spirit, without which we would not know what to do or what to say. For two days now the Lord has been bringing me the scripture :-

In the last day , that great day of the feast , Jesus stood and cried , saying, if any man thirst , let him come unto me and drink. He that believeth on me, as the scripture hath said out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water’ St John 7:37-38

Jesus was of course referring to the Holy Spirit which at that point had not been received by men, because He himself had not yet been glorified. You will go onto read in Acts 2 and the fulfillment of the same, when the disciples waited in the upper room and were subsequently filled with the Holy Spirit.

Two things jump out for me from this word which the Lord is currently bringing and the first one is ‘the last day’.

All over the news we are hearing it is the last bugle call to do something about climate change and nations are gathering together to debate in an attempt to fix. All our merchandising and using the land has caused such damage that we are beginning to see and feel the effects. With the eyes of the spirit I see that there is a direct corollary and it is the last call before the door of mercy closes. You don’t necessarily have to be a seer or a watchman to read the sign of the times. We are in the last days. The signs are stark and obvious and staring us right in the face. Ask yourself, what are we going to do for an encore, when we butcher ourselves, butcher the land and butcher each other , is my question. Changing things to suit ourselves and piling sin on top of sin. We have gone too far.

This word is perhaps a salutary one for those who say they know the Lord, but it is not exclusive. May the church hear what the Spirit is saying to it at this time. The time for happy clappy and patting each other on the back for dead works is over. The bugle call has gone out. But is anyone thirsty enough?

The second imperative is the baptism of the Holy Spirit. You can know God but you need to receive of him ie his blessed Holy Spirit. You can do the mechanical works of God and hold onto multiple titles and positions for the rest of your life, but only the anointing will break the yoke and breathe life into others. In the natural, conception does not happen unless there is consummation- so it is in the the things of the spirit. If something gets in the way, if the womb is hard, the sperm cannot reach the egg – it is as simple as that. We need to humble ourselves, leave off the works of the flesh and to run after the things of the Spirit. Allow the Holy Spirit room in our hearts, lives and services – stop manufacturing and merchandising. Let God be God. People are waiting. Listen what the Spirit has said and is saying to the churches. : You are to be born of the water, the spirit and the blood. Leaders, teachers, pastors, evangelists prophets, anything else is dead works, religion or idol worship. Stop, regurgitating and stock piling the dead wood. Give the people fresh food and water to drink. Bring them in.

As I think about St John 7:37 , I see my savior standing up with arms wide with the invitation on the last day of the feast. Oh how wide are his everlasting arms. This was a foretelling of things to come and what to do . In his mercy he cried out and gave warning. He is still crying out . He is still imploring.

You may feel that you have been a sincere Christian for over 20 years. I was in the same boat – attending church faithfully, but I didn’t know the Lord. I had a theoretical knowledge of God and wanted to be good, but I didn’t know the God of the Bible until I challenged him to show me himself. What I can tell you is that the scriptures do not lie, because when we do ask and come , believing, rivers of living water does flow out of your inner most being.

It is that river that sustains, feeds and washes and moves one throughout their Christian life. It is that river that i draw from today for you and it keeps us in and under the tabernacle of the Most High.

The Bible says unless you have the stamp, the seal, the spirit of God, you are none of His. The urgent call is “Come”, our feasting days are over. It is getting late.

Let us put down all our stuff , all that we think we know and humble ourselves under his mighty hand. Many are depending on us. It is at that time He will exalt us and we will see the true sustainable works of God.

He wants to know you.

The promise of the Father is for us and our children.

Written in His Name

Evangelist Linda J UK



Father, we thank you for the gift of your Blessed Holy Spirit, without which we would be dead men,

Lord, we want to always be open to hear from you and what you are saying in this hour to the churches. Lord , none of us are above your word and we all come short of your glory. Our flesh nature gets in the way of us hearing and seeing and we often harden our hearts to our own peril.

Lord, you keep sending your sons and daughters even coming yourself to warn. You are warning us by the unfolding of events to which you are allowing time. You are sovereign Lord and you will step in according to your divine rule and principle for righteousness and justice. Lord . It is not your will that any one of us should perish or stay in darkness and we ask today that you take away the scale from our eyes and remove the darkness. Remove the things that keep us ensconced with sinful practices . The things that we think ‘look like’ but are not You at all. Lord remove every thing that usurps itself against and above the knowledge of you. It is in you we move and have our being not in a man, machine or ministry.

Lord the flock have been bruised and mishandled for so many years. People trampled over for the advancement of man made ideologies and practices. We have put time limits and brakes on your free flow and we have fed the people with stale milk and rancid food.

Lord our desire is for the holy offering that you offered , once and for all . Position those who know you and are called by your name in this hour. Remove cliques, clubs and gatherings that have no stamp, seal or identity in you or with you. Let the people have a chance and a hope in meeting the true living God.

Lord , we want the serious engrafted word that is able to save our souls. Away with titivating, the rap, rhymes, drums, sounds and hums that emanate from the pit of hell.

Let every thing be bathe in you and the anointing that break yokes. Remove the imposters Lord. Remove the evil midwives , mothers and fathers which abort, stymy and nullify the righteous seed.

Lord , let the church hear your voice , loud and clear. Speak to us in the night , in our dreams. Arrest our very thoughts. Give us no peace until we see truth.

Let mercy triumph over judgment in all our undertaking. Give us time and space to repent and to be filled with your Holy Spirit.

Lord, if the thirsty soul cries: Fill. Meet us at the point of our need. Often we don’t know how far we have fallen, but show us in this hour before it is too late.

These and other mercies we ask in your Name



Daughters of Jerusalem

I cannot begin to tell you how much my own mother’s audible prayers have meant to me and particularly over this season*

I woke in the middle of the night with ‘godliness with content is great gain’ and it is ..!! Waking in my own bed and with the life of God still in my body. I got up in my bedroom and I danced and praised with my arms lifted up. I giggled like a young child, knowing that our God reigns and that he hasn’t lost a battle yet..!!!

You know the most important thing for me is that my family and my dear friends come to know the God of Israel that I have met. The God that moved Abraham to leave all for righteousness sake. The God that moved him to rescue his brother Lot when the enemy had taken them captive. That is what I do and we do as Christians; We are moved with compassion, knowing that a day is coming when it will be too late. It would be good if we could push it on the back burner, but alas the signs are here and staring us right in the face … and we can’t say God hasn’t been merciful and has not been warning us.

Our jobs and positions even in church structures won’t save us… and we have missed it along the way.

Physical sickness and disease isn’t the issue – those things can be remedied, but spiritual sickness and disease, is the issue. The Lord is a gentleman and will not force himself on us, if we want to stay unconsummated, or stuck in whatever it is that keeps us in ‘spiritual eygpt’.

I have been through the valley and shadow of death. I have seen things and again my responsibility is to warn. I am also taking note myself. None of us are above the word.

Don’t take this time for granted. A time is coming when men and women are going to be so desperate to hear the word of God and to have His blessed Holy Spirit, but his covering (I believe) will be removed and we will be left to our own devices and then the draconian orders will come in. It’s at the door ..!!

“Daughters of Jerusalem, weep not for me, but weep for yourselves and for your children. For behold , the days are coming , in the which they shall say, Blessed are the barren and the wombs that never bare and the paps that never gave suck, then shall they begin to say to the mountains, Fall on us and to the hills cover us. For if they do these things in a green tree (when Jesus was going about doing good and we didnt have the atrocities and ideologies, we have now..) what shall be done in the dry. “ Luke 23: 29-31

For goodness sake, if you don’t do anything else today make it right with God. Don’t pussy foot with love ones either or those who you come into contact with, you are not doing them any favors. They need to know the seriousness of the hour.

Thanks for your prayers for me and my household . My daughter and I have been encouraged and are blessed to have you in our lives at this time.

We thank God for his Blessed Holy Spirit

Linda J UK


* my mum is 86 lives in Jamaica but washes us with her own fresh prayers every morning by whatsappp …!!!

I also wanted to put a footnote.

I am aware not all daughters have their birth mothers alive and not all mothers have had natural children . But daughters of Zion, now is the time to review who God has placed under your care as spiritual children. Not all mothers can mother for sure ….. the breast hard and unforgiving …. but God has blessed us with ‘spiritual mothers’ mothers who build (not scatter) , mothers who genuinely care and love and who will give you their last morsel to keep you alive. Mothers who first have an intimate relationship with the Lord. Mother’s with a holy assignment to break yokes – and that you can partake of.

‘….and the leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations’

Extract from my reflective journal  Day 1 of 5 – November 2021

So this is day 1 of my return to hospital during my journeying with ‘the big C’. What a crass term eh? I was sitting in the medical bay a couple of weeks ago( amongst a group of patients) when an old pastor walked in. He (looking worst for wear) recognized me and said loudly ‘oh so you have the big C too?” …..The nurses were horrified. I didn’t answer but did a black woman’s – eyes up to Calvary grimace…. and thought ‘what the …. ?”

Of course he didn’t intend any hurt and he looked so ill, but if he had pulled up my blouse and revealed my bare brown boobies.. (yes i said boobies) in this public arena, I could not have been more uncomfortable and embarrassed , like you are now..!!! In any event, before today, me and he…. had not had such an interpersonal intimate conversation, – me being only clergy, Holy Ghost filled, single, divorced, black female, to boot. He being old school, Anglican lead, but just coming into Pentecostalism and all things new and happy clappy. Praise the Lord!! I didnt know there were so many labels or ways of being in Christendom.

I first learned about what was ailing me in March 2021. Right up to this point in the bay, I had not yet owned or given my illness a name, preferring to call it ‘poorly bones’ , because that is where it is and as far as I was concerned, staying, in my bones ; -It doesn’t engulf me nor define me and after all (I reasoned in my mind ) its not one of the other horrible types of ‘C’s’ you hear about. It’s not the ‘C’ that took my brother Charlie out.

But this thing is real. I now hear one in two of the population will have a diagnosis in their lifetime. Every person I speak to seem to have a story or a connection with someone who had it and that they are just itching to share with me ….including all the gory details ……It is as if they believe it will make me feel better.


I am trying to adjust myself and navigate how I get from A to Z.  

So many questions and positions to review.   

Is it okay for instance to continue to wear my lippy, dance and have hope?  Or should I just lie down and die?  

Is it okay to write a blog or anything, when you are certified as ‘off sick’?

How much and with whom should I share and where? Will my sensitive delicate bits be protected?

Are those who have held grudges to date, now laughing at my calamity? Is it the venom under their tongue (the spiritual wickedness in high places the bible talks about) which has caused this nasty ailment?

How can I safeguard and protect my private bits, whilst remaining transparent and open and whilst seeking to bring about positive change and learning for others. You know if you complain or point out… people close down..

At the time of writing, I waited over 12 hours for medication, despite my admission being a planned one and despite me having a care plan. There is no staff handover, no one reads the electronic medical notes. They want your hospital number, but it is just to fill in a box, no one does anything with it… I find.

“Pain…? (They ask incredulously)……What pain? They move from checking your teeth like a horse, to the regular blood pressure and weigh in. Are you male or female? Or are you in transition… 🙃Can you wash and wipe your own bottom? But pain? What pain? Who sent you?

If you cant shout out or up , it is not hard to see how many people die from hospital admission and/or cancer… but it is not always the illness that kills, rather the system and neglect.

I write with many hats on and sad to say neglect is both in the medical, social and familial field and within the spiritual faith structures. I am still waiting to get a get well card (or some cursory or social sentiment) from those I served with over 5 years and before lock down. But it is well.

This is my personal experience at a particular time and space and I too will have to give an answer.

Cancer …(there I said it …. ) is not ‘one illness but a malfunction of cells’, affecting people in different parts of their body and uniquely over time. The whole reason for my sharing is to seek to impact on service delivery and safeguards across the board and from the porch to the altar. I am a Christian so I speak and minister from that resource pool. May the leaves from this tree, contribute to physical, spiritual and emotional healing.

I want to acknowledge those who have shown me genuine compassion, care and practical Christianity over the last 3 years including my current employers. One couple drove 5 hours to donate a car to me … during the height of my illness. Ms Piggy (the car) now takes my zimmer… and me to and from my appointments and I will never forget this kindness. My lead nurse team (specialist outpatients) have also been exemplary, including a visit at my bedside when I was most in emotional need.

May those who care for others one day hear ‘ well done my good and faithful servant’. As you were doing it for me you were doing it for our savior. (Matthew Chapter 25: 33-40).

Some do’s and don’ts

I dont need an emoji handwave to show me you care, pick up the phone.

Don’t tell me you are praying by a WhatsApp message, ring me and pray with me.  

Don’t add me to your prayer list by name without first consulting me or checking in with me.

More to follow this piece including

  (i) the clumsy language used around the diagnosis

(ii) the personal and professional face of cancer,

(iii) loosing face, internalization and mindsets ie stinking thinking – life and death being in the power of the tongue

(iv) what to tell the world when the healers themselves get sick, or are hung out to dry by their own….

I hear the voice of the spirit . Let me end with the prayer that is playing on my heart.


Have you not known?

Have you not heard?

The everlasting God, the LORD

The Creator of ends of the earth

Neither faints nor is weary

There is no searching of His understanding

He gives power to the weak

And to those who have no might, he increases strength

Even the youths shall faint and be weary

And the young men shall utterly fall

But those who wait on the Lord

Shall renew their strength

They shall mount up with wings like eagerly

They shall run and not be early

They shall walk and not faint

Isaiah 40:28-31

Father we thank you for in you is strength and power. We wait on you Lord because we know as we wait you are working out your purposes in our individual and collective lives. We know we are but feeble vessels and we stumble at times and fall, but we know it is your desire to lift us up and for us to increase in strength.

Lord in our darkest hours you are there. You are the light that shines and you bring clarity to our situation.

You are changing things right now for our benefit and we can say in respect of all eternal and righteous things, that they are working out for our good. You are both judge and jury and you will measure to every man his due when the time comes. You hold the scales and balances in your hands and when you rule, it is just. You never shut down a city without a warning. You sacrificed your own son for your purposes ie to restore order and to bring peace. You laid the original foundations of the world and you will bring in the new, when all things have been accomplished according to your will. All things were finished on the cross and we wait now to wit the redemption of our bodies.

Come quickly Lord.

We long for you.

We wait for you.

We wait for a time when sickness, death and disease will be completely eradicated and the earth will be filled with your glory. We bring every known situation to you and ask for remedy and release.

Your order is for obedience, humility and service done from a place of love and compassion. You lift the beggar from the dunghill and you set him amongst princes, time and time again. Do it again Lord. Show them your steadfast love for me.

Your daughter

Linda J UK